Whoo! My last day in the office at June 17 came to a close! After a week of prodding my closeted colleague, I decided that we should hang out in a Lesbian Bar/Club on the 18th.
A lesbian Bar/club in my country means a regular bar, only to be rented for the night by the organizer and turn it into a lesbian bar for the night. Thanks to FB, I was able to find their page, Changing Lane/s and sent an SMS to the organizer to reserve 2 tickets. I dunno what made me go to this one, considering the distance of QC to Malate. Plus, my first one wasn't delightful to say the least- at Tomas Morato, the bar is now occupied by Octoboy.
Anyways, I was like, what the heck, I don't really have a strong reason to go, but it was more of chilling and trying to baptise my closeted colleague in this world. Find it really odd that she has a gf in the US, they go a long way back in HS, but she's never been in a gay bar/club.
The 18th came, and I left the house at 930pm. I sent a text to CC (closeted colleague) and said I'm off to the bar and will let her know once I'm in there. CC said she's in Malate too, but is in a videoke bar of her friend's and will follow.
It was about 10-1030pm when I arrived at the bar, and spotted 3 ladies, who don't seem to be from here. Pinays alright, but they don't give the vibe they are from P.I.
Anyways, I paid my entrance and went in and got to the bar counter to get some rhum coke (diet coke and Malibu) and sat at one of the stools with tables. Though I'd like to sit on the sofa, pretty considerate that I don't have a 'group'. So I sat on my stool, waiting for CC.
As I looked around, most of the lesbians are in groups, and they don't mingle with other people. As I looked to my right, I saw the same 3 girls who entered the bar before me. They were eating Sisig and ordered some beer. Spotted B, who seems to be of mixed blood. Wanted to approach her, but observed further to see the dynamics and thought they were waiting for more company. Observed further for about 20-30 mins.
Turns out, B's gf is W, and S is the single one. As I kept glancing on my watch and them, one time I turned towards them and caught S smiling at me. In my mind, her smile is really attractive, and I smiled back.
Nothing to lose, I approached their table and asked if I may join them? They welcomed me as I sat on one of those tube chairs, w/o head and backrest.
The 3 ladies asked me a lot of questions about the gay life here, and I introduced myself as well. They were happy to have known someone, and I was really glad that I was able to do my best in explaining the culture- they felt unwelcome and disconnected to the people inside the bar, but I was there to somehow ease their transition, which made the night fun-drinking, dancing with the Go-Go dancers, and flirting that lasted until almost 3 am, followed by 3 more night outs! Definitely, my stay in the UK has helped me a lot in relating to different cultures and people, and I am always hungry to learn something new.
The feeling of nothing to lose spelled wonders for me, I played it cool. Best of all, I was able to express myself with S, and we talked about lots of things from the get go. Although totally different from my type- I believe that my world and mind is maturing. I am no longer about physical beauty and superficiality. Moreover, I am someone looking for maturity, personality and depth. Believing that she is the one who can teach me what I need to learn.
It will be a high and tough mountain to climb, they've returned to Sydney last July 1 and she's lived, perhaps, her whole life there. I have plans of moving abroad as well, for work. Perhaps, if the stars are meant to be, Sydney would be a great destination in a couple of years.
For now, I will have to be content on exchanging FB messages with her, and will be ever so grateful if S gives out her Aussie mobile again (my mobile got stolen last June 30 at Gateway Mall, a day short of its 3rd month). Then I'd be happy to give her a call from time to time.
Taking it one day at a time, I'd like to know her more before I give my heart out. It's long distance.
As for CC, she showed up at 2 am, all of 5 mins. I think she chickened out. Me, I totally won the game, first time I flirted with someone I fancy, sheer guts. Glad it was returned. We never kissed because I think that's the dagger- we won't be seeing each other again until next year.
On our last night out, back in the hotel room, they ordered Jollibee. B asked if I wanted some. It was 3 am and I said I have to go, and I have a house to sleep in. As I bid goodbye to B & W, S was the last one to say goodbye to me. She hugged me tightly and held it a bit longer than B & W, and she said thank you and talk to you soon. I looked at the floor for a bit, cause I didn't know how to react. I felt like crying but I couldn't. I couldn't let my emotions fly. So I just said, goodbye, thank you and see you soon.
As she led me to the door, she looked at me one last time. Had to hastily turn away because I knew in my heart that I wanted her to stay. It's not possible, plus the fact that we have yet to know each other more, and perhaps take it from there.
It will be a high and tough mountain to climb, they've returned to Sydney last July 1 and she's lived, perhaps, her whole life there. I have plans of moving abroad as well, for work. Perhaps, if the stars are meant to be, Sydney would be a great destination in a couple of years.
For now, I will have to be content on exchanging FB messages with her, and will be ever so grateful if S gives out her Aussie mobile again (my mobile got stolen last June 30 at Gateway Mall, a day short of its 3rd month). Then I'd be happy to give her a call from time to time.
Taking it one day at a time, I'd like to know her more before I give my heart out. It's long distance.
As for CC, she showed up at 2 am, all of 5 mins. I think she chickened out. Me, I totally won the game, first time I flirted with someone I fancy, sheer guts. Glad it was returned. We never kissed because I think that's the dagger- we won't be seeing each other again until next year.
On our last night out, back in the hotel room, they ordered Jollibee. B asked if I wanted some. It was 3 am and I said I have to go, and I have a house to sleep in. As I bid goodbye to B & W, S was the last one to say goodbye to me. She hugged me tightly and held it a bit longer than B & W, and she said thank you and talk to you soon. I looked at the floor for a bit, cause I didn't know how to react. I felt like crying but I couldn't. I couldn't let my emotions fly. So I just said, goodbye, thank you and see you soon.
As she led me to the door, she looked at me one last time. Had to hastily turn away because I knew in my heart that I wanted her to stay. It's not possible, plus the fact that we have yet to know each other more, and perhaps take it from there.
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